Day 5

Got a good start this morning~beds made, laundry folded, baby fed..yadda, yadda, yadda. The weather is going to be gorgeous warm and sunny and yet here I sit in front of this box AGAIN! Contemplating how to jump start myself into action. Friends think I should leave business cards at local businesses, my husband wants to buy an ice cream style truck so we can become a hot dog stand type of business. And although I have made a promise to not let it all be about money I really do need to know how to start a business on a shoe string budget. It has been said that Paula Deen started out of her home with 200.00 dollars....so I emailed her once to ask her how. When I first moved to my present home, which I have now lived in for 7 years, I started catering right away...and the board of health came down on me, right away! I was finished before I started~So back to Paula~She actually had an assistant email me and then CALL me, very exciting!!! But all she had to say was that since the time Paula got started laws have changed and at one point Paula too had to move to a commercial kitchen. So no real help there. I have also seen some very ambitious people go door to door with cake slices in the afternoons...so when my 2nd oldest was a senior I would bake cookies during the day and then he would go door to door to sell them to various businesses after school~to say that that grew old for him very quickly is an understatment! HA! but he gave it a shot for his old Mom. So now as we approach Valentines Day thoughts of Truffles dance in my head...do I bite the bullet once again? Spend money I don't really have and the time it takes to make them~which is really the fun part for me~and somehow figure out a way to get those delicious, melt in your mouth, exquistetly warm decadent, breathtaking (no exaggeration!) chocolates into the hands of some very deserving chocoholics!? It is my fear that I will appear pushy, I will also be traipsing about with a 2 year old in tow. My wardrobe leaves something to be desired, I wear clothes I have had for uh lets just say too many years! I have visions of Stacy and Clinton accosting me on the street!!! Somehow I have to figure this all out~excuses, excuses, excuses...they will be the death of my dream~How does a 43 year old woman change her mindset after all this time? How do you rid yourself of negativity? I look at people on all the talent shows that are on now and I envy every single one of them, especially the bad ones~they believe in themselves so much to put it all out there. I am in need of thicker skin. Todays blog feels blah and the sun is shining and the baby is begging for my attention~I am going to shower and pull my self together and go out and do SOMETHING positive for my dreams today...i'm just not quite sure what that will be.