Day 4

So lets just say I am stockpiling excuses already! For the past 3 days I have been on here non-stop. Researching catering websites, writing up 2 proposals, and yes I admit a fair amount of time has been wasted on Facebook! During that time no chores were done by me...which translates into...no chores were done. My hubby travels during the week so I can get away with letting things go a little...a quick run around the house a few hours before he gets home usually does the trick, BUT!!! When I got up this morning I realized something, if I don't do the chores THEY DON'T GET DONE!!! That is going to be a problem and it is also EXCUSE #1. #2 on my list brings me to my youngest son, aged 2~In the last 3 days he has watched countless cartoons, eaten an insane amount of fruit snacks, cookies, goldfish...etc. Washed his trucks with 5.00 a bottle Plum Start, that I buy to keep his little colon clean and today I actually put him in for a nap still in his jammies, with a dirty face! To give my self a little credit, I did notice his face while I was reading him a story~but I thought if I interrupted the momement nap time would be no more...So I am calling neglected children EXCUSE #2.
EXCUSE # 3 has to do with the fact that I have mailbox issues, the one in this box AND the one at the end of my driveway ~when you and your spouse are both self-employed you spend an extraordinary amount of time waiting for checks and job leads. The anticipation of getting the mail is usually better than the act of getting the mail itself, for me it is kind of like waiting for Santa and then getting socks for Christmas! But everyday I wake up with the excitment of what might come in the mail that day...I have been known on occasion to put the flag up on my box so I could look out the window and see if it came yet~I told you all I have issues. So for the past few days I have had the pleasure of preparing catering proposals, building my blog, and emailing with my business partner back and forth. My support group~i.e. FB people~have also been posting fun things to encourage me in my endeavours. So this morning I looked forward to checking my mail, until I actually checked it~REJECTED...there it was my poor little proposal back in my mailbox with a note saying...sorry...etc.
DEFLATED!!! That is how I felt, this is the point where I hang my head and go clean the toilet, which is exactly what I did! I have pondered for hours (while doing laundry and dishes, and playing with matchbox cars) how do I stay motivated this time? What is going to make this time different than all the others?
So I did what I do best I cooked, more specifcally I baked~Blueberry Muffins. Not just any Blueberry Muffins~Gale Gand's Blue Blueberry Muffins. The muffin comes out a gorgeous purply-blue with a fresh juicy bursting blueberry in EVERY bite, topped with raw sugar to give it a sparkly, crusty, crunchy peak! All of a sudden my house was back to being warm and cozy, the baby happily licked the bowl and the smell of muffins and coffee made me close my eyes and think~This is what MY DELI would smell like every morning!!! I can't give up, I have to find a way...so it is with a heavy but still hopeful heart that I write todays blog~afterall there is still hope that there will be a check in the other mailbox!